I feel this constant tug in my heart to be independent and have the drive to make this not-so-known career incredibly successful or to go a college even though I’m already behind everyone else my age at this point. I know when I was at school I was miserable but was it because I wasn’t used to it? Because I didn’t like my roommate? Because I was in a not so healthy relationship? I’m just so confused with where my head and heart want me to go and I’m not any closer to finding answers.